I... I suppose this need an introduction.
It just that... Shit.
So, this is not a real life thing. Real life is going fine. A little boring and full of stuff to do, but fine.
It's virtual fandom life.
FUCKING SHIT.
I haven't been this shocked with a death that I already saw coming in... I don't know. Gods, this is just AWFUL! DAMN IT.
I saw it coming because I sensed something wasn't right. And I opened the episode before the finale without reason and the first image seemed to be a flashback with the character in question asking to not be hated. So, I assumed he was gonna do something awful, or something awful was gonna happen TO him. I really, really thought he was gonna get killed, but at the same time I didn't, and I didn't expect it to be like that, to be so unbelievable horrible. Shit.
Haven't you ever watch or read those deaths? Those that, it doesn't matter you know they're only characters and they are not real and it's just a story, but still, that situation is so real and it feels so close that it grabs you and tears you apart anyway? I had those before, but they usually involve a long term relationship with the character or something in real life to make the connection in my head and make me cry for hours.
Now, I didn't really cry. My eyes got puffy and now I have a ronny nose, but I won't cry for hours on end, though. I won't watch the end of the dorama either. I just... can't. I'm probably gonna dream about this, fuck. I'm shaking. So, no, I don't plan on watching the two episodes this dorama has left to see how they avenge Shun and everything ends in a bloody mess. It's not gonna kill Makoto and I hope it doesn't kill Masa or even Hikaru, or King, of course, but I'm not really worried about them, as much as this story is a cruel one, killing Rika and now... they shouldn't kill more of Makoto's friends.
...
Gods, what a horrible way to die.
I was gonna recommend watching this.
Ikebukuro West Gate Park. It is a good story and it has a real, bitter taste about life in Japan.
Kudo Kankuro (the screenwriter) did a great job at that. School girls selling their bodies for fun, perverted salary men, police officers doing whatever they want with their suspects, gangs ruling the streets, Yakuzas ruling the city... I was seriously going to recommend it because even if it is a little awful, Makoto and his friends make it bearable. They go through all of that without giving the afternoon special speech to make it all better. They are a part of it, and they CAN have innocent fun in it, until...
I liked Rika. And she died in the first episode. But she drives Makoto through the rest of the story so it was OK. But this... I'm talking freely about all of this because I don't give a shit anymore, I'm piss with Shun's death. You shouldn't watch this. It's hard to get into it anyway, because it's so raw and even when it seems light it really isn't and it ends badly. I mean, they only found the yakuza's daughter after she was raped and beaten to death. Although they saved Ali of the drug dealers, he still got deported. They rescued the kidnapped kid, to see him join the rival gang...
Gods, why didn't they kill HIM? He was annoying! Shun WASN'T! Shun was awesome! He loved drawing and girls found him cute. Kaoru was dating him! Him calmness around Makoto and Masa was a balance to the craziness they got involve in. He was only 15!! 15, damn it!
It sure doesn't help he was played by a really young Yamapi in his first important role as an actor. Right after this he played a dying kid from a disease in a TV movie, I think. I'm really happy he got out of playing characters that end up dead after that. Though, if Takuma had died in
Sore wa totsuzen, arashi no you ni, I would have expect it and understand it. I would have cried my eyes out (I did anyway with that dorama), but it would have been OK. He was meant to die, just as Ken in the movie. But Shun WASN'T. He just WASN'T. Not to be found dead in a locker as a message. It was fucking horrible. Horrible!
...
I think I feel a little better now. I'm gonna go and read fluffy fics with Yamapi in it to not keep relating him with Shun and Shun scared and alone and dead. Yes! I'm gonna go read
Nobuta fics. Akira will save me! Kon!